Is it much easier to fall in love when you’re younger?
The person I am now has experienced so much more from humans than my younger self. I am more aware now of what humans are capable of, more aware of what maturity looks like, more aware of what painful love feels like and how unhealthy that love can be. Growing to recognize what I want from a partner has also meant learning what I don’t want from one; I find that with age that often means cutting ties with men easily. I have to wonder if younger me would have ignored qualities or feelings that today me runs from? Would younger me have stayed and loved these men? Loved too hard and for too long?
Younger me was not nearly as strong and self aware as the me I am today. I stand by my relationship choices. I stand by the woman I have become. How funny it is though, to think on what younger me would have done.
The main thought to all of these accompanied thoughts is that I am much pickier about who I love or think I could love these days. I am more selective with the men I choose let into in my life. I dismiss people for the smallest reasons. I look at the long term and while I can enjoy a fun short term it will be just that –short. I don’t think this is a negative quality to have but I do think it tends to be a lonelier one, which is okay.
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